my next target

hehe~ that day after class

i take a good move that is cheat lecturer say that i got meeting with my sister!!

go take PIC and ROM

so about 10 minits i reach one utama

which near my memory there

some bad thing happened that is denise cant come

haiz

i date her too late already

but anywhere it was my bad

cause i too late tell her

so 1130 sharp i buy my ticket which 1120 started!

omg so urgency lor..

i cant stand already must rush to toilet before i went into cinema

finally i sent all my water out from mine body

but i take my lunch in cinema

actually is the same even i having my lunch at outside is the same

cause i taking alone so no need care about the venue

no need care about the time..

weeeeee 单身万岁，孤单万岁

ops paiseh i havent tell wan movie i catching

i watch sanctum alone at 1U there

hehe~ my next target will be black swam!

最近怎样了

这段是你经常和你不长联络朋友的第一句话吗？
对我而言是，
我最近就常发呆
玩失踪
玩电脑
玩纳闷
玩孤单
即使这样也是不会有人理会的
今天看了一个女生的博客
发觉她和我的遭遇很相像
但是自己一个人独来独往
每个人都觉得我很想很开心
可是我不开心又有谁知道呢
没人会懂吧
别人有小石头来形容自己
那么我只能有可怜虫或者是毛毛虫来形容自己
因为我时常外表有刺可是内在软软的
可能这是保护自己的一种方法吧

刚跑完步整身臭臭的
就开始打这博客
不管这样今天是开心的。。

giving up

i have been try so hard to change all those conflict
but seem like i was failed to do so
i think this is it
i should give up
no matter what there have no return way for me
i have to keep going on
no matter how hardship it is i must continues my lifestyle
cant be emotion anywhere!
be strong.
i know that this blog anyone will see it
but this is my style i trying to record all my sadness at here
to relief myself
cause i cant chat or tell anyone
cause there i doesn't have someone that i trust to talk to
i thought after CNY thing will be better
seem like it just only a dream which make by myself
no one know me
no one understand me
no one willing be my friend
is that my problem?
i doubt that did i done wrong anything?
haiz
my lifestyle so suck!
damnit
more suffer when i was at seremban
i wish and willing live alone
sleep alone
just alone
there have nothing change it just my environmental changed only
its still the same
being isolated
js left me alone
cause i have to been cold blood again!
no matter what i wan to be myself again!
i some good experience for me to let me grow up
so i must be thankful
thanks those who let me know what is reality
thanks those who let me grow up so that i could let me liberation
thanks those who let me have a chance to been what i am to be who i am!!!
there have a single word to express my current feeling is SAD

~矛盾~

我相信每个人都有矛盾的心情

当你在外你会想家，但回到家时又想往外去

这些就是我这四年来的矛盾

当我在外时真的真的很想有人可以照顾我

想回到家什么都不用做

想回到家不用想晚餐要吃什么

想回到家。。

可是当我回到家，

觉得我很空虚，
很寂寞，孤单

觉得我不像我了，

在开心的气氛下还要露出笑容来掩盖自己的心情

矛盾心里想真的不想顶撞父母

我不想和他们吵因觉得他们年纪大了

应该让他们

他们叫我去东我不会去西
觉得应该尊重他们

可是他们有不懂得时刻何止

我是一个喜欢在外漂泊的的人

可是没人懂我只想什么

连我自己也不懂

不开心有谁知？烦恼有谁懂？矛盾有谁能帮你解？

现在0241am 2/9/2011

我突然想她了，我已经很努力忘记了，

可是并非要忘就忘的。。

虽然她是

爱忽冷忽热的，

爱逃避的，

爱钻牛角尖，

健忘的，

但是她做事我觉得有计划，

很会照顾自己，

傻傻的。

我想。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

~Remain silent~

28th jan  is a nice and meaningful day for KD housemate~
all friend who stay under one roof went to seremban to lao sheng~
after that all of us went to seremban "hill"
all writing our own wish on KONG MING DENG and let it fly toward the dark blue sky~
but today i felt lose!! wTF im thinking~
i also duno.. and i duno wat i wan~ fast graduate? is it what i really wan?
i doubt that!~
"I smile doesnt mean i happy, i cry doesnt mean i sad"
so even i was smile but those laugh sound is not from deep down of me heart~
just follow their rhythm but it wasnt mine..
where was my own rhythm?
i still finding it~
after 28th jan i still remain silent at here~
some tell me i having to much pressure from my FYP~
actually i felt it was still fine for me~
hope i can tahan people requirement~
and i was try my best to fulfill my supervisor requirement which all segi student are felt hard!
if i can get through this boundary line i can become a real MAN..
anywhere it still a nice day to me~ eat pizza hut~ listen song which i love to~
yet i still missing home alone~ then play only play together~ cause everyone living style are different~

爸爸

1. 對你不好的人，你不要太介意 : 在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，除了我和你媽媽。至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，總有一個原因，他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友

2. 沒有人是不可代替，沒有東西是必須擁有: 看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時，也應該明白，這並不是甚麼大不了的事

3. 生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，明日會發覺生命已遠離你了 : 因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受

4. 世界上並沒有最愛這回事 : 愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，你的苦就會慢慢淡化。不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。

5. 雖然，很多有成就的人士都有没受過很多教育，但並不等如不用功讀書，就一定可以成功 : 你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器 ! 人，可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，緊記！

6. 我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子，當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結 : 以後，你要坐巴士還是 Benz ，吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責

7. 你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信，你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好 : 你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你，如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱 .

8. 我買了十多二十年六合彩，還是一窮二白，連三獎也沒有中，這證明人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以， 世界上並沒有免費午餐

9. 親人只有一 次的緣 份 ，無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，也請好好珍惜共聚的時光，下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見 .

A to Z 学习真友谊 

Accepts you as you are. 

接受原本的你. 

Believes in you. 

相信你。 

Calls you just to say ‘’HI’’. 

打电话给你，就是想说声：嗨！ 

Doesn’t give up on you. 

从不放弃对你的信心。 

Enusions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts). 

预期你总是尽全力（即使有未达成的事）。 

Forgives your mistakes. 

原谅你的过错。 

Gives unconditionally. 

无条件给予。 

Helps you. 

帮助你。 

Invites you over. 

邀请你。 

Just “be” with you. 

静静地在你身旁。 

Keeps you close at heart. 

靠近你的心。 

Loves you for who you are. 

因你原来的样子而爱你。 

Makes a difference in your life. 

使你的生活与以往不同。 

Never judges. 

不论断。 

Offers support. 

支持你。 

Picks your up. 

扶你一把。 

Quiets your fears. 

止息你的恐惧。 

Raises your spirits. 

鼓舞你的心灵。 

Says nice things about you. 

跟别人述说你好的那一面。 

Tells you the truth when you need to hear it. 

当需要时，会告诉你实情。 

Understands you. 

懂你。 

Values you. 

看重你。 

Walk beside you. 

与你同行。 

X-plain things you don’t understand. 

解开你的迷惑。 

Yells when you won’t listen. 

在你听不下时，会大吼你一下。 

Zaps you back to reality. 

把你拉回现实。 

this is from denise lee which i feel is very meaningful..